More Haiti dreams

They just don't stop! Relentless dreams of searching for our three in Haiti!

The one I had last night was a little different. There were other parents with me, we had traveled to Haiti together loaded into this van and were heading out into the country to the orphanage. Everyone had their children with them (Lisa - your husband was carrying Morelson around) except for me. I had also realized last minute that I had arrived in Haiti with no money, no travelers cheques, nothing but a bank card and I was frantically searching for a bank machine. I am not sure if they have bank machines in Haiti, they sure were not any available to me in my dream. I was so worried I would not be able to make it out to see the children if I did not find some money quick.

By my side was a Haitian man. He was helping me navigate my way around and was attempting to be extremely helpful. The only problem was that he appeared to have smoked way to much weed and was acting really sketchy and we kept making weird eye contact. Not bad eye contact, just like we were missing each others signals and our faces were constantly asking "What did you mean?" or "Whats going on?". It was adding to my stress levels.

So there it is.

No update for you other than to say that the only news on Haiti and our adoption is distorted and panicked messages that come through my dreams ... which should give you a real crystal clear picture as to my mental health at the moment.

Please pass along...

This little guy needs a family, a special family, one who has experience in dealing with some pretty intense behaviors, Parents whose children are already older, Parents who can devote a lot of one on one time and someone who can love through it all. Adoption disruptions DO happen, and it is sad when they occur but please do not pass any judgment on his adoptive family. I have known this family by following their blog for two 1/2 years now. I care about this family very much, as I care about their son very much and I know with all my heart that his Parents made the right decision for the whole family. They have fought so hard for this little boy, with every last ounce of their strength.

If you are thinking this person could be you, then read more here - or if you know of someone who might be able to help please pass along the information.

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I had a dream last night that I was a teenager. I woke up early and took my coffee out on to our front porch and knelt by the foot of my Dad who was in the middle of telling my siblings a wonderful story. I rested my cheek against his thigh, raised my hand to shield my eyes from the bright sun, watching the happy little faces leaning in to hear,giggling. I smiled at them.When my Dad touched my hair I turned to look up at him. Everything in life was in that small moment realigned when he looked down at me. It was not my Father however, and the children were not my siblings. Beautiful though.

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Kiss a frog, my little Prince

So I have heard some news

I am not sure if this is true, or not, or if it applies to our situation but I am guessing it will...

It will be required for BOTH adopting parents (if applicable) to appear in court to express their interest in adoption to the judge. I am not sure how paying x amount of dollars and jumping through all the hoops and waiting years does not show a commitment, a very real commitment to a very long and difficult journey but apparently it is not *quite* enough.

I will go. I will get my behind on a plane (oh I am shivering just thinking about it, no kidding!) and I will do anything it takes to get my little ones home. I will need to fly down with someone though as I will not fly down with Rob. One of my biggest fears with flying comes down to us both dying and then there are six orphans out there. I know that whoever is left in charge of our estate would likely *not* do anything to help our little ones in Haiti and that bothers me. Our children here in Canada...who knows?? where they would go. Not to my parents that is for darn sure. Never. That is out in a public domain now - in the case of my death I would never EVER want my parents to have custody of my children. Ugg.

So that is the only adoption news I have got for you today.

Weekend review

Hello there!

I know it has been a while. Again. I hope life has been adventurous for my 5 readers.

Things have been good here. A lot better anyways. This weekend was a good one for our family, I finally had a chance to call my Oma, Robert turned the big 3-4 and we had some extra special company for a night. The only downside of the weekend was saying good-bye to my dear friend Willow who headed back to NZ.

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Rob smoked some salmon for a extra special treat!

T and his darling daughter playing with Finn in our backyard.

Finn just looooooooves T. So do Clover and I, who giggle and feel akward when T is around because there is just "something about him". As I described him before "having T over is like having a gentleman over for dinner - impeccable manners, good conversation, kind gestures" and then Clover added "yes, but then he has his tattoos which just makes everything more curious". T is an anomaly and we feel really lucky to have him as a friend.

Finally Willow and I said our tearful goodbyes for the last time. Next time she comes back she is home for good. Thank goodness. I drove the hour home after saying goodbye on a empty stomach, an hour of sleep (when T slept over we did not sleep much at all, I went to bed at 6:30 am and Finn woke me up about an hour later bright and perky) and through a massive rain storm. Then to make things a little more - odd - there was some sort of weird frog migration going on so there were frogs crossing all over the Highway!! I kept running them over and feeling more and more guilty with each little squish. It was a very strange drive home and I was in a really weird head space to begin with.

Well that was my weekend!

Today we are off to the not-back-to-school picnic and I am really looking forward to meeting up with other Moms & kids. I will let you know how it goes tomorrow morning.

Take care
Mandy